the 5 weeks in the ward,
1 week in the OT,
1 week in CDC,
GONE.

and i suddenly feel pretty out of sorts.

with all emotions that i had in me the past 7 weeks,
still somewhere inside me.
i don't know where they have gone to.
i'm really thankful the hols are here,
and i don't have to wake so early anymore.
i thank You Jesus.

and i suddenly feel abit lost.
where do i go from here?
i know events and activities are lining up once again.
but that's not the point.

where do i go forth from where i have arrived at?

and i hear different people singing, here and there.
and i'm just so tempted to do that.
i realise i cannot be distracted from what i had planned to do.
sometimes, or most of the times,
it's the execution that is always more difficult to bring to pass.

and i must turn away from things that distract and have no eternal value,
and sit and gaze at my Master's face.
for that is enough.

reminders that You are enough.
the simple joy of knowing You,
of spending time in Your presence,
is enough.

i do not have to do more,
and yet. time and again, i am caught in that endless cycle of wanting to do more.

i feel the tug of the world on my sleeve,
in the corner of my mind.
calls and beckons.

and i turn my head,
and see the Master's faint smile.
i drop my head in shame.

how quickly i forget
the price You paid on that cross
in blood,
precious blood
bore the wrath of God

and i see myself among the scoffers


i really have nothing left to say.

and You came and gave me amazing grace.

many ponderings in my mind these past few weeks and months.
i can't seem to get them down on paper or on the screen.
perhaps they are better left unwritten.

who knows the things inside a man's heart?
only his spirit,
and the Spirit of God.
who deceives, and is deceived?

i know not the answers,
or what lies beneath this muscles and bones.
but i know it will all waste away one day.

seems like i have been waking up
only to fight with the same old stuff.
change is slow and it fills me with such doubt
come on new man where've you been?
help me wriggle from this self i'm in
and leave it like a skin upon the ground.


let me have no more excuse.

away from me!
i stand at the door and guard.
i hold up my sword,
and swing.
i will fight.
i will.
til he returns and brings me to safety.
til my lover returns.



great to finally have a break.
and what comes next,
i don't know.
but i know You will see me through.

stand by everything You said
stand by the promises You've made
when all the world is swept away
You are everything i need
You are everything i have.

capture me once again,
into Your loving embrace.

i think i need it tonight.

1:51 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i feel it coming soon.

soon soon soon.

6 more days.
COME ON.
BRING IT ON.

and for now,
family's best.

it really is very diff when you come back from work to an empty house, and to one when your family is back.
what a really lonely week. thank God for bringing me through.
and i'm just so thankful for family once again.

try beating these pictures.

Labels: love my family.

11:14 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

how beautiful brides are on their wedding days.
what a cool quote.
5 weeks down and 2 more weeks to go!
thank You God for having been so faithful.

i'm so thankful youth camp is over.

just awhile more.

just take me away.
i've got nothing left to say.

3:18 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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